To be honest, i dont know about love. What is the meaning of love?
With this, i would like to declare that i am very love myself.
i am enthusiastic woman. can not describe my life longer in sentence. i am person not much talk.
if i am being chatty, it would be that you are wrong on my side. you must be gone from my eye. ( terkekeh )
i met to wrong people.
first, he was DR initial. with him, i had longest relationships than other. i was dreaming being his wife. so did he. he was my first love (laughing o loud).
i already made what to do list.
after graduation from senior high school i will bla bla bla...
i already made what to do list.
after graduation from senior high school i will bla bla bla...
but, on the way, i am still class 2, he asked me to marry me.
i have more feeling than he knew. but, i can't marry him at that time.
then, he married someone without ensure me how deep i got hurt. :(
fyi, he informed me he wanna marry her in Ramadhan. i just said YES, go ahead. but i am crying at the night... Exactly this is sad story.
okay, i studied at college. and he with his little family. one wife and one son. i hope that was finish. but not.he back to me again. he tell me what the problem in his family. he divorced his wife!
he want me to being his wife as soon as i answer yes. but i can't. i dont have feeling again. even my parents agreed accepted him.
i feel it why my parents act like that. please be noted, he is a good man i met ever.
i am trying hard to accept him again. it was 2011..or 2012.
the problem is: i can't accept people that hurt me before. (Please forgive me, Alloh)
yeah, i never publish person's fault to other. i only want, it showed by himself. God never sleeps.
but, since 05 July 2021, i wanna tell you something. :)
until i met new person on 2014 i guess. that was only one month... because my family did not accept him, OSS initial :)
also YGS initial, he my brother friends. less than one month. really.. and his home at across with DR.
back to my first love. first hurt also. Every woman close him, he always tell me, maybe one until three he introduce them to me. yeah, i tell the truth why i broken up him...
and the last fourth women. i want tell the truth again, but i dont want him single.. so i decided, i act angry with her. i want you being his wife acctually.
and i said to him in other time, "i am being second wife.. i am belonging someone."
and yeah... they have married on 2020. and i am ? you can guess
i pray him happy everlasting. Aamiin Ya Rabb.
Thanks you are my best partner since i was at junior high school - senior high school.
ah i remember, he decided to marry first ex wife because i did not want to be invited to eat together.
classic reason, right?
that's why i just thinking you blame me on that situation..
*** studying writing. not really. just write. wrong grammar is not big problem. the big problem is meet with the wrong person ^*(``..'')*^
